A big thank-you goes out to my sisters and my friends. You guys make me smile, even when my pants are down. If you get the picture.
I know, it'll be ok. I've gotten pretty far given what kinda crap I've overcome. I will be ok, a little worse for the wear but all in all ok. My emo sometimes gets the best of me. Think of it as that.
As for Norway, It's cold. Think like 50 degrees. It's crazy. I haven't heard from my mom in a few days, so I dunno what is going on there.
Other than that, I'm looking forward to next semester, and being back for Theta-tasticness. I've encouraged some friends to get to know the other thetas, mainly cause they need to get out more, but also because I want some of my older friends to get to know the awesomeness of theta-bility and maybe be apart of my life again. Though I don't know if that will be the case or not. We'll see later. LAWL.
Also, I'm so flabbergasted at the amount of effort people have shown in concern for me. I'm getting messages of encouragement and concern. It blows my mind, but I am happy to have such awesome people in my life. I have to say it. I feel blessed.
I also just want to say that I'm glad that my brother and sister are home to take care of my mom, and help her. If you guys read this. Thanks. Even if I am terrible at apologies and thanks, I'm damn well trying. I wish I could do more.
Lastly, I didn't realize until now how appropriate the title of my blog is. I truly am surviving. Everyday is something new, and strange. Including sugar fights with my flatmates. Go figure.
Love guys and peace.
UPDATE: Can't sleep. Mom hasn't sent me an e-mail or called. I'm worried.
Can't find the motivation
Jered is on his way to the airport. He'll be in Salzburg in a few days.
My father is still alive as far as I know... Havn't heard from my mum in a few days. Life looks shitty... Soooooooo shitty... As it seems we are in a time crunch. Let's hope we can keep it together for another month or two.
As for me, I think this confirms that my dreams are to be dashed, no matter how much I feel I deserve them. Remind me that self-fulfillment is a bullshit concept...
Haha, my Emo is showing.
Have a good night kids.
My father is still alive as far as I know... Havn't heard from my mum in a few days. Life looks shitty... Soooooooo shitty... As it seems we are in a time crunch. Let's hope we can keep it together for another month or two.
As for me, I think this confirms that my dreams are to be dashed, no matter how much I feel I deserve them. Remind me that self-fulfillment is a bullshit concept...
Haha, my Emo is showing.
Have a good night kids.
Updating
My father is doing slightly better. He had surgery to remove some of the infection from his lungs and was placed on a ventilator. I heard though, that he is off of it and doing better at the moment. We still do not know if he is going to respond to the anti-biotics. There are only 4 that work on this strain, so we have our fingers crossed. There are other things that are turning out to be ... problems, but I leave that for another day. I'm just happy to know that my dad is still alive.
Something here or there.
I assume that I should at least state this but I'll be vague:
My father is apparently in the ICU as of this past monday. My mother told me last night. No one knows what's going to happen, so maybe it'll b ok.
UPDATE: thank you for your prayers. I'm working on that too. I got an e-mail that said he's doing a little bit better, but not in the clear and he's still in the ICU...
My father is apparently in the ICU as of this past monday. My mother told me last night. No one knows what's going to happen, so maybe it'll b ok.
UPDATE: thank you for your prayers. I'm working on that too. I got an e-mail that said he's doing a little bit better, but not in the clear and he's still in the ICU...
my lack of skillz:
So as I awaken from another round of bizarre dreams, I have come to a shocking realization. I haven't bothered to cook all week. This is probably not the best as my health requires I eventually consume pounds and pounds of fiber.
Anyways: Inspired by others
This weeks cooking: none...
Food consumption:
Carrots - 7
Apples - 1
Bread - 8 slices with occasional meat
Havenøtter- 1 bag
Milk - 1 liter
Chickpeas - 1/2 cup (leftovers from the week before)
Wasa krackers - 1 pack
Jarlsburg cheese - 1 small package
Strange food I be eating
however due to circumstances over the summer, I learned how to eat with only minimal concerns with taste and complication.
Now on to something good:
My day at the Holocaust Center in Oslo.
So, I got lost on my way there... several times making hops off the bus at the wrong times.
I get there and got to listen to a man talk about how bad history books may have lead to the genocide in Rwanda in 1994. All of this was really amazing as he was a native to Rwanda. Again I sat back and let the little nerd inside of me take over. Then it got awkward. During the Q&A some question came across about the nature of the genocide. This was answered by the presentator, "It was without bounds, neighbors killed neighbors, Husbands slaughtered wives. My parents were killed by our neighbors... but in all I think that Genocide can happen anywhere at any time."
WHOAS! WAIT UP A MIN!! Yah, he just told us about his parents being killed... ok not so freaky for you, be he just threw to out to us like to was the color of his pants (the pants were black).
Really neat topic though and I have some good stories to go along.
Later and out
Anyways: Inspired by others
This weeks cooking: none...
Food consumption:
Carrots - 7
Apples - 1
Bread - 8 slices with occasional meat
Havenøtter- 1 bag
Milk - 1 liter
Chickpeas - 1/2 cup (leftovers from the week before)
Wasa krackers - 1 pack
Jarlsburg cheese - 1 small package
Strange food I be eating
however due to circumstances over the summer, I learned how to eat with only minimal concerns with taste and complication.
Now on to something good:
My day at the Holocaust Center in Oslo.
So, I got lost on my way there... several times making hops off the bus at the wrong times.
I get there and got to listen to a man talk about how bad history books may have lead to the genocide in Rwanda in 1994. All of this was really amazing as he was a native to Rwanda. Again I sat back and let the little nerd inside of me take over. Then it got awkward. During the Q&A some question came across about the nature of the genocide. This was answered by the presentator, "It was without bounds, neighbors killed neighbors, Husbands slaughtered wives. My parents were killed by our neighbors... but in all I think that Genocide can happen anywhere at any time."
WHOAS! WAIT UP A MIN!! Yah, he just told us about his parents being killed... ok not so freaky for you, be he just threw to out to us like to was the color of his pants (the pants were black).
Really neat topic though and I have some good stories to go along.
Later and out
PAIN and Ketchup
So, My head is STILL in horrific pain. This has been 24.. if not gone by tomorrow... I dunno.
Anyways... strange food of the week.
Cheese and Ketchup sandwich.
Also... somehow I am addicted to puffed wheat. I've eaten 5 bags in one month.
Anyways... strange food of the week.
Cheese and Ketchup sandwich.
Also... somehow I am addicted to puffed wheat. I've eaten 5 bags in one month.
It's official
I'm only going to stay one semester here in Norway.
My main reason is that classes are not working out like they should. My credits are being compromised by stupid people that don't want to be that helpful.
but also, as we speak I am rather ill (horrific pain, fever, and an inability to swallow correctly which I feel is connected to the abscess forming in my mouth.
plus a few more health related problems.
Lastly, cost. Because I need to have my teeth look at now, and everything costs 2 to 3 times as much as in the US, I'm fairly certain that I will be close to strapped for cash.
Let's hope I have enough to fly back to the states?
My main reason is that classes are not working out like they should. My credits are being compromised by stupid people that don't want to be that helpful.
but also, as we speak I am rather ill (horrific pain, fever, and an inability to swallow correctly which I feel is connected to the abscess forming in my mouth.
plus a few more health related problems.
Lastly, cost. Because I need to have my teeth look at now, and everything costs 2 to 3 times as much as in the US, I'm fairly certain that I will be close to strapped for cash.
Let's hope I have enough to fly back to the states?